Here I am. 26 years old, college grad, good job, recently married to a wonderful woman, and still when I'm alone, I feel this impending sense of loneliness. Why is that?
When it comes down to it, I just feel down and out whenever I'm alone. There are exceptions to the rules like when I'm alone out hunting or I'm sitting at work waiting for something to do, but other than that, if there isn't someone around, I'm just a lump. I don't get it.
People tell me I need to get a hobby. I can't agree more! I've tried several things but when it comes down to it, I almost always enjoy having someone around when I go golfing or shooting photos. Someone I can talk to if I want or someone I don't talk to if I don't want. I think I have a fear of stepping out on my own and living life or the possibility of doing something wrong and not having someone to help me out of it. I think maybe I like to be a leader or teacher. I like that interaction with other and want to pass on my knowledge whenever I have a chance.
All I know is that this business has got to stop. Its been going on for far too long and I don't like the way it makes me feel. How am I going to change? Well, that has yet to be determined, but I'm moving it towards the top of my list today.
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